65: Mother Mary

‘Scotland’ by The Lumineers

The Creator Of It All is known to her worshippers as Mother Mary.

They hold on to her, because they need something to hold on to, when society gives them hell. She inspires the living and cares for the dead. She is in control of everything and everyone by the power of her words.

A man named Steven, a devoid worshipper, has just killed his wife and is about to kill himself. So she appears before him and inspires him to live on, to not give up on life.

She is powerful and difficult to understand, having little mythos surrounding her. But worshippers feels her immense power and gets strength from that.

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Chapter 60: ‘Space Bound’ by Eminem

Steven and Natasha are stuck in a loveless marriage. Or rather that is how Natasha sees it. This is how Steven sees it:

He loves her so much. But after the break-up with Pink years ago, he had difficulties showing his feelings. He had trouble trusting and believed love to be evil.

That belief changed when he met Natasha in Vegas. When they touched, he felt a rush, they both did. With a clutch they sealed a promise of what could be. At first it’s just torturous lust.

Lust turned to love. He starts out by warning her, that he could become dangerous, if she broke up with him, because he has been hurt before. She either didn’t take it seriously or forgot – possibly both.

He was so sweet at first. He told her in complete honesty that she took his breath away.

He would do anything for her. He loved her endlessly and feels weak around her. She felt the same, but held back at first in an attempt to not scare him away. But as she became more and more expressive of her love, his difficulties with showing emotion caused him to draw back.

This was when Natasha stopped believing he ever loved her. And by then he was too withdrawn to argue against it.

So she cut herself loose.  They were now married in name only.

He can stand this for one year and six months. He finds the strength to finally pour his heart out to her.

But by then she no longer wants him. And she no longer wants to talk. She tries to leave. In an act of desperation, he grabs her and chokes her. He ends up snapping her neck.

Tears steaming down his cheeks, he puts a gun to his temple and tells her once more how he much he loves her.

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Link to lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/eminem/spacebound.html

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57: ‘Up & Up’ by Coldplay

Steven earns his wealth from owning orange farms.
He worked towards this dream for years working meal to meal.
Natasha supported  and helped him – most of the time. There was in fact a period in which they were broken up – and it actually broke Steven’s heart. They got back together and healed. They lived trough hardship, seeing each sunrise as a gift.

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52: ‘Blow me (one last kiss)’ by P!nk

Children don’t see the full truth about their parents’ lives. Gaga and Rachel, Natasha’s daughters, didn’t see the tears, that were a big part of Natasha’s dreaming away. They only saw her mother’s mental absence.

Gaga and Rachel, Natasha’s daughters, don’t see the tears, that are a big part of Natasha’s dreaming away. They only see her mother’s mental absence.

But the tears are there, burning up her eyes. They are there along with milky-white knuckles  and sweaty palms from desperately hanging on to the life she and her husband, Steven, who is also the father of her two daughters,  has had, however little love there has been in it.

And there is still something to cling onto. Or at least so it seems. Steven still reaches out for her at night. But Natasha has begun rejecting his advances by excusing it with headaches. So he clenches his jaw and sleeps with his back to her. And after holding on for a long time, she realises that there is nothing to hold onto  – so she lets go.

Finally, she has had enough. She has done enough thinking and dreaming of better worlds. This is it for their marriage.

Finally, she longer has to deal with his telling her, she is too serious. Her head is spinning from his many words of criticism.Their days are awful, because of this charade and she has had enough. She wants her ignorance of his lack of feeling back because there was bliss in it.

So she tells him to blow her one last kiss. While they are still married, she starts living her own life, completely giving up on behaving like a married woman.

She won’t miss him and all the fights they always had and never let their daughters see.
She will no longer fight, no longer look for something that isn’t there. Instead, she will dress nice, go dancing alone, laugh, get drunk and take somebody home.

Now she’s going to do as she pleases, anything she wants. She will breathe freely at last and not worry about a thing.

And he’ll be sorry for how he treated her.

Link to video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jNlIGDRkvQ

Link to lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/pink/blowmeonelastkiss.html

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48: ‘ My Mamma Said’ by Aqua

Despite the unhappiness that infects Steven and Natasha’s marriage, Natasha stays for the sake of their children. She gives up her life so that they can have a happier life.

Gaga, the older daughter, notices her mother becoming more and more unhappy. And she wants to do something about it. She thanks her for doing it but asks her to leave.

Natasha shakes off her concern. She tells her that  the best thing in life was getting Gaga and loving her higher than anything else in this world, and the worst thing in life is getting used to loving somebody higher than anything else in this world, knowing you’re going to lose it all in time. So she wants to do this for her.

It doesn’t get easier, when Rachel, the younger daughter, is actively working with Gaga. Rachel begs for Natasha to not leave.

Natasha stays. She stays and dies a slow death. Her mind wanders to all that way her life could have turned out. She becomes passive and spends most of her time lying around – and Gaga can’t look at her without crying.

Rachel, however, keeps holding on to her mother, begging her not to leave and run away from her mind and life. To release herself from her imagination and be with her family.

Both daughters circle their mother begging her to listen to them.

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Link to lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/aqua/mymammasaid.html

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47: ‘Mean Girls’ by Rachel Crow

Natascha and Steven has another daughter, whose name is Rachel. She’s at a boarding school and she is being bullied by the girls there.

They avoid her to the point of leaving the table, when she arrives. They call her names.

This gets to Rachel. She runs home to her room and locks herself in, so she can cry. She hears everyone’s having fun outside, she tells herself, that this is it. She won’t let it get to her no more, she doesn’t want to feel this way.

Why did she let it go so far? She decides to comb them out of her curls and not let them run her world. She will ignore them instead.

She soon has to put this to the test, when everyone is wearing bubblegum-pink, whereas she is wearing blue. They all laugh at her – including a former friend, who’s now very popular. Instead of being devastated and beginning to cry, she gets angry and confront her former friend angrily, taunting her for doing the easy thing and bullying Rachel instead of standing by Rachel’s side. She reminds her, that it might one day be her, who everyone will avoid, because she is no longer cool. And she says, she hopes she will be forgiven on that day.

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Link to lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/rachelcrow/meangirls.html

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44: ‘Why Don’t You Love Me’ by Beyonce

There is no love in Steven and Natasha’s marriage. And she decides to do something about it, specifically to talk to him about it. Steven however does not want to, so she has to convince him to that first: ”Now, now, now, honey. You better sit down and look around, cause you must’ve bumped yo’ head. And I love you enough to talk some sense back into you, baby. I’d hate to see you come home, me, the kids and the dog is gone.”

When him finally listening, she asks him:  ”I give you everything you want, everything you need. Even your friends say I’m a good woman. All I need to know is why? Why don’t you love me? Tell me, baby, why don’t you love me, when I make me so damn easy to love? And why don’t you need me? Tell me, baby, why don’t you need me, when I make me so damn easy to need?”

Her voice is cracking, when she reminds him, why he should love her: ” I got beauty, I got class, I got style, and I got @ss. And you don’t even care to care.”

He tries not to look at her, so she says: ”Looka here. I even put money in the bank account. Don’t have to ask no one to help me out. You don’t even notice that.”

She continues: ”I got beauty, I got heart. Keep my head in them books, I’m sharp. But you don’t care to know, I’m smart.”

His attention once again strays, so she recaptures it: ”Now, now now now now now now. I got moves in your bedroom. Keep you happy with the nasty things I do. But you don’t seem to be in tune.”

By now she is desperate to get him to see! with a voice more cracked than ever she pleas: ”There’s nothing not to love about me. No, no, there’s nothing not to love about me. I’m lovely. There’s nothing not to need about me. No, no, there’s nothing not to need about me.”

When this doesn’t work either, she realises that the problem doesn’t lie with her, but him. He’s simply not the one for him. So she says: ”Maybe you’re just not the one. Or maybe you’re just plain……. DUMB.”

Link to video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QczgvUDskk0

Link to lyrics: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/beyonceknowles/whydontyouloveme.html

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