96: ‘I Bruise Easily’ by Natasha Bedingfield

Fergie has had a messy life. She is therefore deeply insecure. She has, however, hidden that from everyone. Some months ago that cost her a relationship. A woman named Evanescence was going to leave her husband for her, but then she saw one of the surfaces, Fergie put on and realised that the Fergie she knew, was a surface as well.

But this is months ago now. The husband is dead. And Fergie has had a lot of time to think. She goes to Evanescence without surfaces, without defences. She stands naked in front of her, all of her insecurities and bruises visible.

She tells her that she is insecure and is easily hurt. Even when she has her defences up, she feels the blows. So Evanescence will have to be gentle with her when she now gives herself over to her defenceless.

It is scary. This could hurt or heal her. Evanescence could love her or leave her. But if she never tries, she’ll never know how it would have turned out.


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16: ‘I wanna have your babies’ by Natasha Bedingfield

Natasha meets Steven in Vegas.They spend time together there and think, that will be it. It isn’t. They become a couple.

Natasha wants to bear his children. She doesn’t want to risk losing him, so she buttons her lips. She knows, it would scare him if knew just how badly she wanted this and how far she had thought ahead (she has already picked out the church, they’ll attend, what the children’s names  will be and which schools, they’ll go to).

Sometimes she just can’t contain her feelings. When this happens, she pretends, it was a meant as a joke.

She uses methods belonging to her church to wish for him to get ready for her to tell: lighting candles and throwing coins into a fountain. She doesn’t want to say anything to Steven before she’s sure, he’ll respond positively to the idea.

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